On the 21st April 2012, was my last performance in the band...
the day was full of laughter and funnest and too...tears.
i have lots of fun playing and joking with my saxophonist.
-Shane, Adawiyah, Kogina, Keow Leng and many more.
we kept taking picture, doing funny staff.
at last, it was time to perform.
as the curtain of the stage lift up, i could hear calls of Shane, Adawiyah and so on...
it was normal...but what surprise me the most was the call of my name!!!
i was shocked but mostly happiness and it was by my beloved brother and his friends too!
it was so loud and the kept calling when it was in silence, it was full of their sounds with my name out.
i felt proud both for me and to them.
this was the very first time it happen.
i always envy those people who name are being called when he/she was performing on stage. i thought "wow, so cool! how great would it be if it was my name instead..."
but i always dismiss this thoughts as I'm not popular and bad at communicating with stranger.
but yesterday, my name was called so many times and the loudest cheers, all just for me!!!
i was so joyous that my nervousness was cut to half, filled with confidence, as i just wanted to play the best of me to those who support me!
the whole time on stage, i was smiling so happily! Thanks to them.
when i went out of stage, Sir was telling Kogina "whoever they called must be super popular!" And Kogina was like "no lah, it was Genevieve they called"
and sir looked at me.
although i later found out that most of the band member was wondering who was it and some even find it irritating.... which one of them was Keow.
i was quite angry and upset that she said that they were irritating and show no respect(one who using his phone while we're performing, WHICH i doubt was my brother and his friends)....
I really hated people who say something bad about my family and their friends whom i respect!
anyway, as i said earlier, i mention tears was because we sec 4 are stepping down and the major(sec3) prepare some things for us...
what they say really let my eyes filled with tears... i was so touched and sad...
i will really miss the band....
Anyway, this was the best performance i ever had, although there was lots of obstacles and difficulties, we manage to overcome it and come this far.
i really love and want to thank those who support me, my brother and his friends, my family, my friends and also my instructor who really help not only the and too but me.


21-04-2012
:the best day of my life where I'll never forget.

Tomorrow shall be the day,where the first concert i will be having solo.
Gosh I'm damn nervous even right now!!!!
Yesterday during the dry run at school hall,i mess up my solo part.
and sir said that if on the actual day i screw up,he will stop the whole band,apologise to the audience and restart!!!
Gosh this so damn add to my stress.
and this whole day i could not even not think about this and my butt keep quiting to sit down.
Arhhhh Shit!!!!
Anyway,i do think of the positive side though...
After this performance,i shall be able to rest!!!....Not.
Damn,cause my tutor called me up and ask when to start tuition again!!
STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!
GAHHHHHHH...
Gosh,really wanted to rest though....
But look forward for the saxophone outing!!! :D
All the best!Tomorrow.

My heart ache now...
Whatever they say I don't understand...
I feel like they never include me...
It really hurts...
Even when typing this my hand are trembling,really wanted to cry...
Somethime I really want to shut down,I really wish someone would understand me,
I really needed someone to hear me now...
But I guess no one is there right now...
Jiayou gengen,smile and nothing will happened.
Don't be so childish...

Things that made me sad/unhappy...
-Knowing more and more animals endanger
-Knowing more disaster happening
-When people stood me up
-When your best friends having so much fun together without me
-Knowing that I'm so damn bad,ill-minded...



I'm so damn sad right now knowing my best keep leaving me out/stood me up...
I know there is a reason behind it,probaly,but i still dang upset.
Really hate who am i right now,hope that i could change a become more understanding towards people around me. :{

One day,i shall let those who did not appreciate music,to appreciate.
One day i shall let people who love music to be able to love mine.
One day i shall stage one a stage and let every one to fall in love with my sound.
This shall be my Target.
This shall be my Dreams.

Today shall be my happiest day ever!
At band,i was able to play Saxophone Solo for the piece Hymn to the Infinite Sky.
At first during full band,i was sooooooo nervouse that i keep making mistake..
My hand was trembling soooo hard as i feel that every eyes i sense were following my movement.
I was so nervouse that sir keep telling to relax!
Finally,during the last try i was able to play beautifully.
This was the first time sir said to me"i was close to tears"
This was the first time people came to me and said"well done!""WOW!so nice!"
I was happy!!!
But still unsatisfied with myself...
Jiayous Genevieve!I CAN DO IT!!!

Today my beloved friends plan a BBQ party for me and jasmine. I have lots of fun!!
11.30am, wake up and do my jelly(which failed)
12.30am, bath
1pm, wait for the time to reach as watching manga.
3.30pm, when out of house with for big bottle of drinks in my bag and a big fat heavy bag on my hand.
4.10pm, feel like growing shorter,finally reach lock house.
Then stay until 5.30pm
Meanwhile,watch TV,eat there eat here.
Then Bing and Qi say I very lab sab then Bing help me tie my hair :D
5.30pm, when down with BIG bags and BIGGER bags and ride on Lock's dad car.
5.40pm, meet Don,Boon,ChengHan,LiQuan and busstop.
Then when to Lacasa to meet Jas and MinHui.
6pm, when into Lacasa and start to prepare for BBQ!!!!!
6.30pm, unpacked things while the guys start fire.
Keep eating while unpacking and stick the marshmallow and sausages.
6.45pm, ants attack!!!!
7.30pm, BBQ are ready!!!! Starts to BBQ,sausages,chicken wings,bacon and Marshmallowsssss!!!!!
9pm, BBQ ended. Bing blindfold me. Everyone starts to lead me to somewhere.
Then splash!!! I ended in the pool with Donovan saying 'no worries, we won't push you inside' and with Bing hugging me and jumped inside the pool :)
9.10pm, Kelvin piggyback me inside the pool and went out the pool and walk in circle:)
Have lots of fun in the pool with me lovable friends,playing games.
10pm, we got kick out of the pool and need to pack up.
10.30pm, me and Lock wait for my mom to pick us while the others when to eat.
11pm, reach home.
Thank you Bing,Qi,Lock for waking up early and prepare for the BBQ.
Really appreciate it.
Thank you Don,Boon,ChengHan,LiQuan for coming and helping out.
Thank you Jas,MinHui,ZiXin for coming and helping out.
Thank you! Have such a wonderful time and jhave a great fun.
Without you guys, my birthday will be at home sitting infront of my computer and celebrate with it.
Thanks you all!! Really loveyou guys and girls!!!

EYES ON ME !

Genevieve♥
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